Bitch In Nature

Guess where am I people =)
Oh yes babe , my hometown , HONG KONG ~
HK damn rocks weihhhh XD

Hmmm ~
Should have update my blog straight after my friggin finals
But my wonderful mood was spoilt by someone , by something .
Truths are always ulgy , f*cking ugly .

All those rubbish started by one msg I send to her .
I knew everthing , but I just wanted to get the truth from her , from her friggin mouth .
We switch from sms to msn .
Keep chatting until 3 something in the morning .
I don't wanna admit , but yes I did say alotsa alotsa harsh words .
To a person that I didn't even thought of .
You guys won't know how much I treasure our friendship .
I f*cking scold you because I f*cking care .

I don't understand why you friggin did all these to break somebody else heart .
They like you doesn't means you can do anything you wan .
What ? You sucks in handling this kind of relationship thinggy ?
That was so god damn funny .
I'm gonna rate this as international jokes man .

Well , you know how disappointed I am ?
I can't believe you can be that fake .
After that convo that I squeeze out from my heart .
I can tell at least I am sincere when talking all those thing to you .
My words hurt ? stab straight ?
Yes , thats my purpose .
I don't wan't to see you be a b*tch like this .
Isn't fun hurting people heart .
My dear , you believe in karma ?
Or you freakkin know about that ?

After telling me ,
You will make things clear with that guy ,
Even thanks me for my truthfulness ,
the next thing you do is telling that guy that
you can't be with him because I scolded you ?
And the next day you went out with him and hug hug walk walk ?
Bravo my dear .

BFF = Bitch Fake Forever t(-_-t)

Nothing stays forever ,

Best friend ?

Ji Mui ?

F*ck you to the max .

Da Broken Past

Day and night

I wonder through the dream

How we used to be

How we used to see

What actually happen

Push us apart by distance of sea

With a invisible mountain that cant pass through

This isn't what I mean

I trusted with heart

I loved with soul

One last question

Did you pretend to care

Or you really give a damn

What Happen Tell Me What Happen

We used to be so happy together
We study together
We jokes together
We eat together
We had fun right

Everyone was so simple
Everyone was so innocent
Everyone was so happy
Everyone was so united

Since when things get out of control ?
Since when everyone think differently ?
Since when the group falling apart ?
Since when there is something called backstab and arguement in our group ?

I tried so hard to bring back the group
But I FAILED
I am always there
Try to find back the missing piece
But I FAILED

I need a DORAEMON
To go back to last time
Seriously , I meant it

Sorry reader
I don't mean to affect you all with my emo-ness
But i find no one to share
I apologize for that , people =)

Helpless yet Useless

[ i can freakkin fake a smile huh ]

" Am i a good person , am i a good friend ? " This question come across my mind millions of time last night . Yesterday was a tough day for me , i am mentally and physically tired . Having class whole day until 6 something , and at night have to attend the freakkin so-called-charity-concert . D_a_r_n >.<

So many things happen yesterday night during the VELVET CONCERT . *ouch* for once i thought i will heart attack and die =_= too much surprice for me that day =( He reveal the truth to me [ sorry no further disclosed ] , which i dont know how to react . I wanted to help him so much that i was actually mad at myself when i realised i cant do anything =(

Well you know , he is a best friend of mine , I dont wanna see he hurts , I dont wanna see he upset . I cant bear see he falling like this . Heart seriously ache when i see him like this . =( When he have a hearty talk with me at the staircase , tears in his eye , I cant bear with it . I tried so hard not to cry too , I dont want to burden him , I dont want him to feel sorry . Instead i pass him tissue , and gently pat on his shoulder .

After that talk which i think last about one hour plus , we go back to our gang . And found out that another friend of mine called by her ex for a talk . I have no idea where she is that time , her phone died coz out of battery . I am freakkin panic that time , what i did is dial her ex bf number . He told me he at 5th floor , having a talk with her , he said things have to be settled tonight . Without a second of delay , i rush to 5th floor without telling anyone about this . I was so scared that time . >.<

When i reach there , I saw both of them , standing there , she saw me and she started to cry . He was standing there , keep on scolding her . *ouch* Again , my heart shattered . ='( seriously i dono what to do that time , i wish i could just pull her and run >.<>

but then he sudd walk and stand beside me , which give her a chance to run away . It just happen like this unexpectedly . He shouted : " Stand there , dont run ! " , and me , I just chase after her , but then sudd I think if I chase her means he will chase too . Then I changed my plan , I slowed down , and blocked him . I actually pull his sleeve and beg him let her go =(

When I cant hear her footstep banging on the floor anymore , I leave him there . I told him , what you did make you like a woman , be a man and let her go . Then i actually walk off . Went to the carpark , waited beside her car . When she appears , my heart torn again . She was crying and nothing I can do except ask her to go home 1st . I am so useless huh .

=(

Back to the hall , I saw my best friend , was there emo again . Sigh I was so tired . I just manage to go and sit beside him , and I cant squeeze out anything to say . Then another friend of mine text me and said he went back 1st due to another emo matters . *ouch*

Its hurt you deep down the heart when there is nothing you can do to help your friend , but just stay there watch them struggling .

I gotta do something .

Send my regards to the heaven =(

seriously , i effing hate march . march is the month i lost my beloved cousin sister , Janice Saw . my heart break when i get the news . seriously , it hurts me deeply . She just 20 yrs old , and because of a b*stard , she and her bf lost their life .

after one year , i still cant freakkin let go . i miss her every moment . to me , she is a friend , to me , she is a sister . i am so close to her since i was young , although i stayed in hong kong before that , but i did come to msia and visit her every year . i get even closer to her when i moved to msia . we share laughter we share sadness we share secrets . which guy is hot , which b*tch we hate in school . we share almost everthing . =(

just because of the b*stard that claim himself as their friend , they are gone . Janice was dead . Lup mun , her bf , unable to survive too . wtffff , the accident will not happen if not him . if he din't speed and cause the car lost control , they won't died . if he din't act like jay chou drift in the f*cking narrow turning , they won't died ! ='[ who the hell he think he is , why . . . i just feel like go straight to his face and give him a big slap . wth , he don't deserve it . he didn't even hurt a single bit in the accident . its so unfair isn't it , why not he is the one who die . he is the one who drive hazardly . he is the one who should go to hell ~ ! =(((

5th of march , janice saw's birthday .

MSN :

Me : biu jie ~ ! happy birthday yeah ` ! so sorry i cant celebrate with you . =] anyway , happy birthday and enjoy ~ !

Janice : awww , thanks my dear . its ok , we can spend some time together next time . oh yeah hows your result ?

Me : nahh , i haven get my results yet , its on 12th of march . i am so nervous wei ! >.<

Janice : don't worry , i got confidence in you , sure can get a very good result wan =) must inform me once you get your results ya ~ ! ^^

Me : no problem ~ ! sure i will , hope its a good news ^_^

Janice : ok ok , hey gtg , going out now , mun is here =) catch up with you later , bye honey ~ =*

Me : sure , send my regards to ah mun gor gor =) enjoy yeah , bye .

this was the last time in talk to her before the accident . she said she gonna catch up with me later , she ask me to tell her my good news later . but she passed away on the day i got my result . i don't even have a chance to tell her that i did it , i got a very good result . i should be happy isn't it . but ends up i burst into tears when i got the news that she was dead , and i cant even stop when i get my result . why cant you wait for me =( i haven't tell you that , i scored all As for my exams . i cant . . . i don't have the chance anymore . i can't believe that you are dead when i got your brother's call , i thought that was a jokes , how foolish am ! =( how much i wish its a jokes .

sorry ppl i cant continue anymore . night

Ops I am Late

S0rry humans
yesterday was too tired after the exams and 0uting
straight went t0 kiss ma l0vely bed 0nce reach h0me

ab0ut exam ?
nahhh ~ its en0ugh p0st 0n exam .
i bet y0u guys b0red with it ,
s0 ~ SKIPPED .
=)

0uting ?
yesssss ~ ` went t0 timesquare neway after exam
s0me ppl are late *grrrr*
s0 me and kelvin just simply walk ar0und timesquare
seri0usly i am s0 pissed 0ff with ma friend them =_=
cant decide 0n what they wanna d0
always change plan and their 2nd name is LAST MINUTE i guessed >.< plan ="_+" style="font-size:180%;">best n0 matter what ❤❤❤

btw , neway actually sarks
IN MA OPINION . . .
i really d0 think s0
their service was like
*whoah , w0nderful ` brav0 ~ !*
d*mn , they keep haunted us with the same immaterial questi0n
"d0 y0u all wanna change the 5 plate 0f peanut int0 drinks ?"
"d0 y0u all wanna change the 5 plate 0f peanut int0 drinks ?"
"d0 y0u all wanna change the 5 plate 0f peanut int0 drinks ?"
O-M-G . keep haunting =_=
we t0ld them milli0ns 0f time ,
WE WANTED TO WAIT THE OTHERS REACH THEN ONLY DECIDE !
yish =_+
0k well , CHILLED

but then but then , we really have a great time when singing
HAHA ~
i just l0ve t0 be with that bunch 0f m0nkey LOL
brian sang the beegees : staying alive
with his high pitched and low pitched voice
ZOMG , its s0 s0 s0 freakkin funny
sh0uld have rec0rded it
hmmm , maybe next time
then g0nna share with y0u guys xP
[ Bad Romance by Lady Gaga ]
LOLS , we l0ve this s0ng s0 much
sang 3 times XD
0h l0rd , i l0ve the
gah gah wu la la
rum ma rum ma ma part
HAHA ~ !
[ 3 by Britney Spears ]
used the funny alien t0ne t0 sang this
LOL
1 2 3 n0t 0nly y0u and me
HAHAHA ~
britney is s0 sexy *nose bleed* =P
and much much much m0re
i sing sang sung until ma v0ice
wew , g0ne LOL
went back at 1am
is tiring but we l0ve it ~ ! ^_^
( wil upl0ad all the pics when i back frm penang , perhaps)



NOT SO GOOD PART :
well , just receive messages fr0m ma auntie mins ag0
while i bl0gging

[ Uncle s0 very busy s0 we w0nt be dr0pping by... ]
yeah auntie , i kn0w that is n0t that busy pr0blem ,
he d0nt wanna see ma face , i kn0w i kn0w
=[

[ Your mom house given all to you...
she's the 0nly 0ne in the family kn0ws h0w t0 give the best t0 0wn kids
and can l0ve with unc0nditi0nal l0ve...
0ne 0f the greatest m0m i ever c0me acr0ss ]
='[

*tears* uh huh , auntie's msg can always made me flash back
all the things that have happened in the past...
the boyfriend...the lie...the tears...the sorrowness...
and i cant never escape
i shall be guilty FOREVER

m00dy is n0t ma style =(
PS: n0t ar0und fr0m 10th t0 21th